Erika Kirk, Charlie Kirk’s grieving widow, talked about the time she saw her husband’s body in the hospital after he was killed. She also told him the “secret” she had kept from him her whole life.

His eyes were semi-open and he had this knowing, Mona Lisa-like half-smile. Like he’d died happy. Like Jesus rescued him. The bullet came, he blinked, and he was in heaven,” Erika Kirk said in an emotional interview with the New York Times.

Kirk also said that the sheriff advised her not to look at her husband’s body because the bullet had hit his neck.

Kirk said she was able to say goodbye to Charlie at the hospital, which she hadn’t been able to do that morning when he left for what would be his last event, a speech at Utah Valley University. READ MORE BELOW